The night of December 21, the Solstice, I was feeling lost, disconnected, exhausted from ongoing and overwhelming contract negotiations, feeling that things should be different in this moment, feeling that I should be stronger than this.
Especially since I have been working on ‘my vibe’ for the last year intensely (and actually for over a decade) in anticipation of this day, the prophesied entrance to the Golden Age.
I prayed. And asked for assistance from all of my guides and the company of heaven, to help me know what I need to release and love free.
Nothing came.
“I surrender. What else can I do?” Lyrics from Tina Malia’s “Sound of the River” song filled my heart.
On my knees beside my bed, praying to God, I surrendered.
I cried.
Knelt to the floor.
Cried and cried.
I let go. There was nothing else I could do. Let go and let God.
Perfect surrender.
I decided and commanded that all I want to do is serve the Light, serve God. Be ONE with God. I splayed myself open and released all of who I think I am and my limited mind. Everything. I just went limp in surrender to the ONE.
I then imagined myself my inner garden where there is a fire pit in a desert landscape with four of my friends drumming and holding down sacred space. The fire emanates from a deep hole in the Earth. The fire is the Violet flame of Mother Father God, the Violet flame of transmutation, emanating up from the deep hole in the Earth. I stood over this hole in the earth, levitating as the Violet flames enveloped me. I often imagine myself here when I need to let go and release. This night, I asked to be cleansed fully and completely from all the distorted ideas I have about myself, my identity, and all that is not the True Divine Me.
My body slowly dissolved and became part of the Violet fire. (Usually, I release ‘stuff’ at this fire pit and it gets lapped away by the Violet fire and transmuted back into Light. I have never dissolved like this before, and I feel like I did not make this happen, it just happened, organically, in my inner garden.
In another area of my inner garden, a gorgeous green mountainous landscape, a vast sea of angels appeared. A new version of my body lay horizontal in the air and was passed in front of each angel. As each one touched me, a tiny spark of light was gifted to my body. I went around to what seemed like millions of angels who each gave me a little packet of light. I received packets of light from the Pleiadians, from the Sirian Royal Lions, from the Ashtar command, from the Essenes, from Isis, from St Germaine, from every guide and angel I’ve worked with or has ever supported me.
The light I received seemed endless.
All gave me a packet of light.
And then all my friends and family showed up and each touched me and gave me a packet of light as well. And my beloved partner gave me a kiss. And then every person I’ve ever touched, moved, inspired or affected in a positive way came into my inner garden and touched me and gave me their light too.
A truly amazing sight! A gift of pure LOVE and LIGHT.
Archangel Metatron seemed to be in charge and this was his gift to me for which I am eternally grateful. (Archangel Metatron guided me as I wrote the Mana Gardening book.)
Next my body came to be in front of Quan Yin. (I simply adore Quan Yin. She and her eternal loving kindness is ALWAYS with me.) She breathed LIGHT into my heart and it glowed.
Beloved Archangel Metatron tweaked my mind (which I could actually feel) which opened my crown chakra.
And then dear Yeshua (also known as Jesus) came. He BREATHED me. I inhaled and exhaled the BREATH of CHRIST. I was being given a new BODY of LIGHT and being given the BREATH of GOD.
I was Being RESURRECTED. Holy Holy Holy.
I cried and cried in gratitude for these beloved gifts of perception, became utterly exhausted and I slept.
Woke up feeling like I still had more to release… noticed me shaming myself for getting upset on the Solstice in the first place – I was still not in complete allowance of what had happened. I sat with the self shame for bit and nurtured it, thanked it for its service and asked it to leave since it is no longer needed using the violet flame to transmute those energies back into Gods perfection. It then felt complete to let that recurring theme go (again!).
Then I was listening in on Patricia Cota-Robles in the Soulshine event and Quan Yin comes and brings me loving kindness and compassion that I lovingly give to myself and spread to the world. There I was crying again.
After some integration, the significance of what occurred finally setting in: I received a Body of Light made up of angels and galactic beings, my friends and family, and all whom I have affected in a positive way. I am MADE of them. I am now made of the pure LOVELIGHT of God’s children who lovingly gifted this to me. I now breathe Christ’s breath, the Breath of God.
Holy holy holy!
May this experience forever change me and catapult me to into my deep desire to come completely into my fullness as a fully self-realized Christ Conscious being of God on New Earth!
***These type of experiences just happen in the inner garden when you tune into your higher self through the act of Mana Gardening on a consistent basis. Keti and I call this organic gardening (as you will read in our book) and as you will discover, or perhaps already have, the inner garden of your heart, works FOR you, THROUGH you to bring forth all the goodness you deserve and desire!
Namaste~